So I'll just be blunt. Waiting on a list to be matched with a child while there are more than 150 million orphans waiting for a family stinks. Being bound by birth order guidelines when you would love to open your heart to a child of any age seems ridiculous. Watching other people bring home their little children while you're still waiting seems unfair. Deeply loving a child that you don't know; their gender, birth date, the color of their eyes or the glow of their smile seems impossible but accurate.
Four months in and so many more to go. God put us on this path for a reason and hopefully we'll figure some of it out during the wait.
As for Gabriel... he's waiting too.
photograph by Erica Cambarare Photography