Thursday, May 19, 2011

It stinks

Moving away stinks; yes, it's going to be a great adventure, we'll meet new people, we're following where God leads.... I know all of this but right now it just stinks.

We haven't had enough time to say goodbye to everyone we'd like to see.

We didn't have time to make all the different memories I wanted to make before we left.

There just wasn't enough time. And now I can just imagine Jessie Spano from Saved by the Bell screaming at Zack that "there's no time, there's never any time. Thankfully I'm not that dramatic, nor addicted to caffeine pills so I won't burst into tears while simultaneously singing "I'm so excited" [smile].

Today as Gabe and I drove away from Cleveland Clinic Children's Rehab - West, for what will presumably be the last time as a patient, I cried. Of course I've cried at a lot of goodbyes lately, but saying good bye to Gabe's therapists should not have evoked tears. But it did. And while I tried to wrangle my emotions I realized something.

It's an American prerogative to complain about everything, never having enough, always wanting more. And I try my best to stay away from that; to be thankful for all that I have and remember, and pray for, the billions of people that have it far worse than I do. But it's because I am so blessed, it's because in every facet of my life I am blessed.

I have a fabulous family.

I have great friends, many of whom are like family.

My community rocks; neighborhood, church... it's the best.

And in a place where a lot of people wouldn't feel blessed; we've been blessed. Schizencephaly stinks a lot more than moving but it is an area of our life where we have been blessed. Fabulous doctors, state of the art facilities and the most incredible therapists have made this difficult medical diagnosis so much easier to bear.

In every aspect of life, even the ones that are difficult we have been blessed.

It's not the moving 1,100 miles away that stinks the most (there's airplanes and skype), it's realizing all my blessings and knowing we're leaving them behind.

Thanking God for all the blessings in my life, even if it stinks to leave them behind.

"Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change." James 1:17

1 comment:

Dardi said...

All of these blessings have set a beautiful foundation for you to receive the blessings to come! By nature, us humans don't care much for change b/c it feels a lot like loss, but as I look back at the times in my life that involved great change, it was then that God was doing great works in me!

Happy journey!!